I can not believe the grip these dried up leaves have on me. I went all weekend without the Xbox since my daughter grounded me. Yes I know that is funny, picture a 33 year old man sitting at the kitchen table getting a lecture about how I have disappointed this poor 11 year old girl. I hung my head low and said, "I am sorry I will try better."
Friday night went pretty smooth I was able to continue on with my thrill of being able to play Madden 2008 if I didn't smoke the whole night. My daughter had a friend spend the night so I was able to go the whole night without smoking and she allowed me to play Tony Hawk with them to see if I can help them unlock some more area's in the game. We all got up on Saturday and had breakfast, I stayed away from the coffee and had some Soda instead since I have realized drinking coffee and having a cigarette go hand in hand with each other. Then we went to the Mall. Going though the mall with two girls almost in their teens and a 3 year old is always fun. I am lucky that my kids are used to hearing, "I can't buy that right now I need to wait until payday." They are to the point that they barley ask for anything anymore.
After lunch we decided to go into a movie, this is always safe because if I am going to pay that much money to go to a movie there is no way I am going to miss some of it so I can smoke. So by Dinner time I was feeling pretty proud of myself for not smoking at all. After dinner we went to my daughters friends house where neither of her parents smoke anymore so it was pretty easy to go without there also. Then the girls came up with this great plan, they were going to spend the night there Saturday night so they could get up in the morning and go to church together. So me and my youngest daughter packed our things and went home. We were home long enough to get our PJ's on and make some popcorn so we could sit down and watch a movie, when my girlfriend came over with her daughter. So we made a little camping environment turned the movie on and ate popcorn. About half way though the movie my neighbor came over, he was bored so he decided it was time to bring a beer over and hang out. The kids were watching the movie so the 3 adults sat at the kitchen table playing cards and the other two were drinking their beer. My neighbor decided to go for a smoke, That ended it. All day again and here we are, my oldest isn't around to see me. My girlfriend and neighbor got their jackets on and said, "We are going to go Smoke." My youngest daughter looked at me and said, "Daddy, you can have one"
I couldn't believe it... So I had one, then 2...
Needless to say I failed miserably again on Saturday...
Sunday was actually a very good day, nothing exciting happened after church so we all went home and hung out without any smoking.
Monday was okay, I ended up having 2 during the day at work, my smoking buddy at work was getting lonely so he begged me to go with him.
So far today I am doing really good, I haven't had one yet but I have eaten a lot of Pretzel's today.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Horrible Weekend
Posted by DruU at 12:24 PM
Labels: Cravings, effects of smoking on children, hate smoking, help quitting smoking, how can i quit smoking
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Dru ~ Don't be to hard on yourself. I have finally started the process too. You may want to check into the Zero-Smoke magnets that you wear on your ears. I have tried just about everything to quit and so far these have really helped me. I am not smoke free but, I have cut it way down. I bought my magnets from eBay for $9.99. My post about them are under your post for today. I included links to places to get them on eBay. If you have any questions just send me an email.
I agree with what you’re saying. I have put together a challenge to the hospitality industry to join the growing smoke-free trend and prohibit smoking in all workplaces, including restaurants, bars, hotels and casinos, both indoors and outdoors.
This video will make you laugh, check it out:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYBpzZw0_JI
your are such a sweetie... hang in there... you'll make it...
Just do not give up on yourself... if you fail one day... who cares... you succeeded in REDUCING your nic consumption...and your body steps down it's dependance... a little failure is also a lot of success... do NOT forget that...If you fail half the time... you've succeeded the other half... ALWAYS focus on the what you accomplished, not where you slipped.
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